What is generosity?

Summary

The video titled “Generosity: Women Matters of The Wisdom Factory” features a diverse group of women from various countries and continents sharing personal experiences and reflections on the theme of generosity. The participants engage in an open dialogue, addressing their emotional landscapes, the meaning of generosity in their lives, and the challenges they face in nurturing this virtue amid modern societal pressures. Throughout the conversation, they explore the nuances of giving and receiving, the implications of altruism, and the concept of “philanthropy washing,” where acts of generosity may be more about image than genuine intent. The women express their thoughts on how generosity manifests in their daily lives, the role it plays in their relationships, and its significance in building community connections. The dialogue is enriched with personal stories, reflections on emotional health, and an exploration of the deeper meanings of giving, ultimately emphasizing the importance of generosity as a vital aspect of human connection.

Highlights
🌍 Global Connection: Participants from multiple countries come together, showcasing the universal relevance of generosity.
🌱 Nature of Generosity: Discussion on how true generosity should be selfless and unconditional, free from expectations.
💔 Emotional Turmoil: Several participants share their struggles with emotional challenges and how these affect their capacity to give.
🔄 Give and Take: The dialogue emphasizes the balance between giving to others and taking care of oneself.
🥇 Philanthropy Washing: The term is introduced to describe acts of giving that prioritize image over genuine altruism.
🌈 Generosity in Relationships: The conversation highlights the importance of generosity in fostering meaningful connections.
🎨 Creative Expressions: Participants share creative ways they manifest generosity, from personal gifts to community support.
Key Insights

💡 Generosity as Human Nature: Generosity is often viewed as an instinctual response to the needs of others. The women reflect on how their upbringing influenced their understanding of generosity, with many citing family examples that shaped their values.

💭 Complexity of Giving: The discussion highlights the complexities involved in acts of generosity. It is not merely about giving but understanding the recipient’s needs and ensuring that the act is received positively. There is a recognition that sometimes what is offered may not be what is needed, leading to questions about the true nature of generosity.

🤝 The Role of Community: Generosity is portrayed as a vital component of community building. The women discuss how acts of kindness can create bonds and foster a sense of belonging, reinforcing the idea that generosity is not just about individual acts but collective efforts to support one another.

🎭 Altruism vs. Self-Interest: The concept of altruism is explored, differentiating between genuine acts of kindness and those motivated by self-interest or societal pressures. This distinction raises questions about the authenticity of giving in a world that often values image over substance.

🌊 Emotional Connection: Many participants express the emotional weight associated with generosity. Feelings of guilt, pride, and sadness emerge in the conversation, indicating that generosity is intertwined with personal emotions and societal expectations.

🌟 The Healing Power of Generosity: The dialogue suggests that acts of generosity can be healing not only for the recipient but also for the giver. Engaging in generosity fosters emotional well-being and creates a sense of purpose, reinforcing the interconnectedness of human experiences.

🔍 Generosity in Modern Society: The women discuss the challenges of maintaining a generous spirit in a world often dominated by individualism and competition. The conversation emphasizes the necessity of nurturing generosity as a counterbalance to societal pressures that encourage self-centeredness.

Conclusion

The video encapsulates a rich and multifaceted exploration of generosity, highlighting its deep emotional significance and its transformative power in human relationships. Through this gathering of women from diverse backgrounds, the discussion reveals how generosity is not just an act but a profound way of relating to oneself and others, fostering community, and nurturing emotional health. The participants leave with a renewed understanding of what it means to be truly generous in a world that often complicates this virtue with expectations and societal norms. The insights shared serve as a reminder of the importance of giving from the heart, free from the constraints of personal gain, and the value of fostering genuine connections rooted in empathy and understanding.

00:00:02 this is women matters of the 10th of March 2025 good we are in six today that’s fine and how many countries one two three four five and uh three continents that’s it’s great it’s always exciting me to me when we meet so globally okay check in RI RI is Italian check checked in Mona to First Vienna all right well spring is here in Vienna it’s warm and there is the dust from the Sahara covering everything in a yellowish Hue uh which is rather well I can and there’s no rain and we have forest fires in Austria because it’s so dry so

00:01:09 we are hoping for rain but this is just the usual around this time of the year and otherwise I’m fine I pass on to Victoria thank you I’m just moving because I’m in a loud place so I’m trying to get to a quiet place um so greetings everybody sorry the for emotion sickness um greetings from San Diego um it’s beautiful day I’ll prove it by opening my curtain um I’ve just come home I’ve been out for the last couple of hours so I’m readjusting um yeah spring has sprung um and uh I’ve let’s see what

00:02:01 else to say um a lot a lot going on I I I have been through some emotional turmoil and I’m expecting some potentially some major emotional turmoil um in a couple of days so I’m trying to fortify myself uh for any kind of drama family drama um uh so I’m glad to be here in community and um I will pass to Hy thank you Victoria I’m H in Cape Town and with us we have still summer like Midsummer weather and the evenings it sometimes get a bit cooler um autum is on its way we can feel it but still very very hot days and

00:02:50 lots of wind and so forth uh which for me is always good because it blows away all the stuff clears the air and so forth so I I actually love the wind sometimes it can just really get crazy I’m good and um yeah I’m grateful to be here with you all and I’m passing to you g trout yeah from South Africa to Germany it couldn’t get much wider um yeah I have been yeah you’re might be not surprised with me but I have been in a Summit on a summit uh that’s uh called painfree Summit I have some hip problems

00:03:46 and with a young guy uh who really goes back to the original body how does that original body um yeah how how did EV ution create us and to go come back to that and what I thought was really interesting was this combination of knowledge and um practices and community and and everything and um one that really stuck with me was I don’t know if anybody of you know tcity these are like sticks that are that are combined together with rubber bands and they so none is touching any other so it’s it’s like the way the the bands

00:04:47 hold the whole thing it’s it’s kind of um taking the the the sticks apart but it holds and and he said this is how our body should work so it’s not so so when you walk and then it should uh the the joints should get out um yeah extended again and yeah so I created myself a morning routine how how I could do yeah to to go about what they they have a for p uh pain patients they have a year program which is not cheap but it was I mean for 24 days they had eight hours you could attend so it was really

00:05:45 amazing so I’m learning again and um yeah had some very nice new clients and things like that yeah so some prospects do you have any exercises for your wrists maybe or your wrists um I mean the whole thing was to come back to the core and from there you can so so the the extremities will benefit from not not just to do I see something at a certain thing yeah okay yeah so that’s what I spent my last three weeks with and I hand over to Christine to ksb CS Carl’s bag California California yeah thank

00:06:51 you um yeah I just developed a a new pain in my elbow it’s strange it’s just this a tiny little spot but I feel it all the time because you’re always moving your arm so every time I move my arm or bend my elbow you know you feel it I’m I’m sure it’s a a loss of cartilage or whatever um but two things going on with me the uh wedding on April 11th is getting a lot closer and we’ve had a couple of meetings at the venue met um with the caterer last weekend and this weekend we just met with the day of

00:07:28 coordinator we have a woman who was hired um to help make the day go smoothly take care of the vendors make sure everybody who we’ve hired is doing what they’re supposed to be doing um so that was good because then we know a little bit better about how things are going to unfold we went through a whole timeline uh of the day and who’s doing what when and what’s going to go on and um now it’s down to details um the only you know I’m sending my daughter would you like I sent her I think everybody

00:08:04 probably knows what Etsy is everybody know what Etsy is yeah and um I’m finding out there’s like a gazillion things you can get for weddings oh great I’m finding this little do you want this sign do you want that thing we’re gonna do um instatic Polaroid instatic photos for the guest books so we’ve got the film and people are going to take a picture of themselves and then that in the guest book as they sign and so those kind of little details um were were’re putting in place and uh who’s going to dance to

00:08:42 What songs and all that kind of stuff my daughter takes care of you know 90% of it and and she’s very good at it very organized but the big I think I’ve mentioned this the big unknown is she wants to do the flower arranging herself and that’s um one she’s never done that that at that scale and two it’s not an easy thing to do it’s a professional thing so um we’ll say but she and I both agree it’s you know the flowers are not going to make or break the day it’s you know they’re not the biggest part of the

00:09:16 day so we’re not too worried about it and then the other thing to report is that um I’m gradually being phased out of my office um and that’s a long story but the the short side of it is is that it looks like starting in April I’ll no longer have office space on Wednesdays and whoever wants to come into the office I’m going to have to squeeze in on my one day which is Monday so I’m bringing that up because it probably will affect my availability at Women’s matters on Monday mornings I will try to

00:09:52 avoid scheduling over women’s matters as much as possible but it is the only day I have left in the office at this point um so it’s not not really my choice but I don’t have a lot of say over how the office is being utilized at this point because I’m being phased out so that said um groud are you going to I how is Tom doing oh Tom’s doing better thanks he’s you know he’s did gardening this weekend and he’s continuing to walk he met with the surge uh physician assistant uh this past week and so everything’s going well yeah it’s

00:10:36 been 3 weeks so um still getting his energy back but everything else is going good thank you and do you have to cook a diet or does he take care of no they said now that the gallbladder is out he doesn’t even have to be lowfat although I think we’ll maintain that low fat low sodium um but he doesn’t have to be on a special diet no M gerrad are you going to IEC this time no no no I guess not um it’s the first birthday of my uh youngest coming up and yeah some other issues so I said to Stefan I will not

00:11:23 come with though it would be the first time not since 2016 so I was really like kind of but um yeah I guess not well I will miss you then and I will hand over to Heidi yeah thank you I won’t come to to Hungary because probably I need a new car and so I have no money at all to spend in a in that thing but I probably will go to Germany for a non not so expensive thing so and tell me when you’re there prob probably I go to the free flow Festival which is in July combining with my family meeting where my sister with her

00:12:12 family from California comes to to cobor and so I will do that together uh Christine it seems to me a wedding like a a Film Production or something like a big big theater uh uh show when I think my weddings we just went there to the office and married and then we had a nice meal the very first one was a bit bigger but not not in the same scale it’s it’s incredible what you’re doing there good so now I’m fine I uh had some extreme experiences in this week um which opened my mind again about the level of

00:13:02 development and to meet directly red and blue uh energy without any um uh Consciousness where is no consciousness about self and uh you know that was very interesting because normally we are together in our level of of development no and then then you you you meet a person uh in this other and it was really amazing I’ve learned a lot K said not conflicting people it’s conflicting levels yes for sure sure and I I also saw the the pain in the eye of that person the The Emptiness you know of outside like

00:13:54 H but when you look closer you see that’s I don’t know is it fear or is it lostness to be lost in in somewhere and you know that was really impressive for me to see that and the inability in these stages to to handle it because there’s no so just go go ahead with the same what you did all the time like like how do you say um uh like a sort of dependency like of you have to do this all the time without knowing that you are driven drivenness I think it’s the it’s the word for that it was very interesting

00:14:44 so the topic for today I don’t know if you have some some idea mon remember that we talked about uh yeah pra last time but about um what was it gracious not graciousness I for generosity generosity with my learning of trying to learn the Russian words now I don’t remember any words not even anymore in in English and often not in German and Italian it’s going it’s going really strange so generosity generosity was the the word yeah thank you what are you thinking about that and if yes just start what comes to

00:15:35 [Music] mind I um as you were sharing about what happened to you I had a similar experience with an old friend who comes out our type of community who slid it back and because during Co they moved to Wisconsin they were in California and then they moved to Wisconsin and lived with family which are more of the nature of blue and red if you like you share it and it seems like it dropped off on her and it was really interesting to also as you mentioned the I and we did it online so it was not even in person

00:16:23 but I could see there was something missing it was like she’s not the same person anymore it was really interesting it was rather shocking but also really interesting and she is a very generous person by the way as we speaking about generosity um it was just really interesting to be with her and not to go into a face of judgment or anything and just to be present with her and allow her to share whatever she’s experiencing and how she sees the world right now but it was rather interesting quite a shock

00:16:58 yeah that would also be a possibility to talk about what you can see in the eyes of other people because for me the eyes are disclosing much more than words or or even movement no so actually I do with our Pilates teacher she is very good in in in in African dance and everything and writes books and paints and is really good in everything but she doesn’t get enough clients and you know when you see her with her eyes she always goes by like this she is not self asserting that and if you don’t assert yourself people

00:17:36 don’t you know so I for a while I do with her every time I see her I challenge her with the eyes and ask her to to come to I tried with attacking but attacking didn’t work she is too sweet you know so now I try with curiosity that she opens the eyes and goes into my eyes you know I I wonder if if I can contribute to her to be to be more how can you say such an like first she looks with the eyes are like this and then she is sort of retracting these eyes you know and then she invites other people to come in and

00:18:20 take advantage of her you know which is happening all the time and so it’s another sort of therapy I guess which I’m doing in in two minutes every week but I hope that something will it’s already a bit better she’s already more able to to hold the um the the the the how do you say the meetings of of the eyes instead of Disappearing no so connecting with generosity I could call that generosity to to work with people in this way to to offer um to offer that but it’s also because it’s such a shame when a person

00:19:09 is so so gifted and doesn’t find recognition you know and but from the outside you see that she herself is not recognizing it so no is not valuing what she is doing because otherwise she could offer it like this instead oh will you really will you really uh you know like this is people feel that and so they don’t come okay give over to you mon what made you come up with that word or with that uh well we I I just wrote it down last time I don’t know how it came up but I was just wondering whether true generosity is

00:20:06 without any intent can you follow me um so open minded that you don’t expect something to happen but that you just give um yeah that brings up the whole subject of altruism um I think yeah I remember generosity coming up too and it might have been I I I I’m not sure but I’m in a year-long course studying the 10 parames or ultimate virtues in Buddhism and the first one is generosity so I’m suspicious it may have had something to do with something I said last time um and and one of my teachers I this is

00:20:59 not relate to that particular course this is in a was in a different setting but I have one teacher who is so strict about these virtues um that he says if if you can gain anything from um if you’re aware that you can gain anything as a result of your act of generosity then it’s not pure generosity and so he he doesn’t use the word altruism but that’s what I thought of when he said that I thought it’s this idea of doing good with no expectation of of receiving anything whatsoever in return um but he he raised the bar so

00:21:39 high I thought in actual fact it’s not I mean it’s utopian like inevitably we I mean I think as human beings we live in a give and take uh relationship where it’s um you know I even god well I mean that’s another topic but but I see even God in terms I mean according to my belief God created the universe out of love and generosity but God does receive in return I mean that’s the whole idea of praising God or loving God the idea of Free Will so that you’re not obligated nobody’s obligated to love or

00:22:20 to do good you do it out of your own free will otherwise it’s inauthentic you’re just a slave so to me me the idea of generosity is is kind of um you know the ideal should be that you that you have uh when you said intent but I guess is that what you meant and in other words the sense of like it’s open-ended just um like you gave the cacao to your granddaughter um that was just that was an act of generosity that just came out of love and out of the impulse of the moment you saw that she was she was

00:22:54 stressed out she’d been through a lot and you wanted to give her something that would make her you know comfort her and make her happy and comfortable you know and I see that as just um yeah natural that’s to me like human nature at its best just giving because you see a need and you respond I I recently heard or saw somewhere that giving our attention is the greatest gift so I mean you could call it attention you could call it time with somebody but that is the greatest gift we have and um I don’t know the the

00:23:43 term generosity also made me think that there is a it it means that there’s a relationship can even just be a relationship with somebody you don’t even know if you’re giving to a charity generously you don’t know who’s receiving it but there is still a relationship so that speaks kind of in in integral or spiral I should say spiral Lang language that’s really those levels that speak more about community and um connectedness as opposed to the levels in spiral that are more devoted to individuality and uh achievement that

00:24:24 kind of thing there there’s definitely a sense of community with the different level every other level of spiral and um yeah I I tend to think about that uh generosity can be a lot of things it can be something very material um or spiritual or an idea it can be something abstract I think I’ve learned generosity from my mother definitely um she had a sense of generosity of caring for those people who uh were less fortunate and I remember her sending money to uh relatives in Russia um on a consistent basis and her parents my

00:25:13 grandparents were also generous um during the Depression they owned a grocery store and uh you can imagine that um they saw a lot of people in need who couldn’t pay for their groceries so I know my mother witnessed firsthand and during the Depression how people took care of each other um in very real ways that were very meaningful at that time so um I fear that generosity is becoming old-fashioned because I think we’re in a some some people are very much in a phase of individuality and do it yourself and

00:25:55 don’t count on other people and you got to be it for you and don’t think too much about sharing or caring um so those values uh in the lower left quadrant are definitely being challenged I think these days where did where did anybody else learn generosity from who did they see being generous I’m just curious just my father yeah so my mom was more stingy I mean we were seven kids so she had to somehow but my father yeah so I I saw him more like when the the boat people the Vietnamese in 79 came so I I mean she

00:26:47 did that when he initiated it so they took care of of Vietnamese um four kids that came alone and and we invited the the all the community they were in a house next to hours and we invited them and my my parents would take care to yeah bring them to the dentist or and and to give to charity and things like that so he was more the one who who was thinking that way yeah more than my mom and when I’m thinking of generosity it’s always like more than expected or more than you should or more than the

00:27:39 treaties say or more yeah so it’s it’s it’s always like an an act of um beyond the what’s normal or expected or written down or whatever you have given me an idea Christine um this individ and the orange way of living can use generosity outside to instead getting a gain of it it can seem like generosity somebody gives a million to I don’t know some generous seemingly generous thing but at the end they are earning with it you know so uh it can be very much abused that it’s only seemingly generosity I’m thinking about

00:28:50 Bill Gates for instance no giving a million and getting back seven or 10 Millions at the end from from his uh but there are many people in this way so what is genuine you said it more or less is in generosity G said when it is you give something before you were saying something and don’t expect anything back and you say it is more than you should do or which is expected from you when you give more is is this can we have more definitions is there more about it I have an idea for a practice if you

00:29:38 want to let’s hear anel first thank you ID um I learned from my dad I think the most he was even with his time not just with money and things like that he would always work for people on public holidays and he work together with him and he didn’t want anything back for it and he also um he paid for people in the community’s children to go to university while two of his kids were at University when he was still alive and he didn’t want anything back for it so I learned from him that it’s from the heart it’s

00:30:21 something that you give from the heart is not even thinking about it it just comes it’s just the word that comes up it’s natural so it’s not even that you compare something you just know yeah you just do it you don’t even think about it um that’s what I learned from him I I was going to say to be generous you have to be thinking of somebody else’s needs right there’s there’s no generosity if you’re not considering what somebody else might need or want and I think for myself it’s probably one of the biggest triggers for feeling

00:31:04 guilt honestly I think um I think I’m always wondering if I’m being generous enough Tom and I have different values regarding that and I have conceited to him and maybe that’s a sign of generosity by con conceding to him or maybe it’s being uh not courageous or not brave enough on my part I’m not sure what it is it’s probably both but um there’s there’s ways in which I’ve suggested or I’ve wanted to provide something for somebody and he wasn’t so thrilled about the idea um and it and it would have taken both

00:31:46 of us to agree so you know it makes me feel guilty like I could do more I should do more I I why aren’t I doing more it it’s quite a guilt provoker for me that’s interesting yeah I still have another idea are you generous if you give a to a person something which the person doesn’t even want well that’s I think that’s a big piece of it um the Christine said uh generosity is old fashioned which I think is great um I mean the the statement not the IDE um the and I was thinking about that and I thought why is it old fashion and I

00:32:34 realized it is that we’re in this kind of do-it-yourself uh culture where we’re not we’re not used to um because there’s a kind of Grace and graciousness in being a recipient of generosity um and I think Pride I feel like the underlying I mean Christine you said guilt provoking but I was thinking um yeah what what what does that whole issue bring up in us and I was thinking the way I see it pride is behind it at every step of the way so in other words if you like the great donors um like here locally well Christine

00:33:16 notes that Jacob’s family there’s a family that made became fabulously wealthy virtually overnight through technology um and their names are on everything like you can’t walk down the street without the the Jacob’s building of this and the Jacob’s that and the Jacob’s such and such such and such and yes they’ve been generous but they’ve also their photographs or everybody I I I went to the symphony to a concert and saw this enormous double portrait of them in the foer instead of where it used to be a nice kind of Roco painting

00:33:50 um and so to me that’s a that’s a dubious generosity in so far is it’s only they’re not they’re not uh they’re not uh profiting financially from all this large e but they are profiting immensely in terms of how they’re regarded by the community and they see their own image everywhere it’s a narcissism um and then similarly Pride can be on the other side of people like you said Heidi what if what if they what if you receive something you don’t want or what if the person um maybe maybe that’s not the

00:34:25 example but um I know my mother who was extremely generous was a very awkward receiver because she was a narcissist and somehow the idea that somebody would see perceive a need in her whatever kind of need whether material or non-material um she it was very hard for her to receive because it it somehow she felt it was deflating her her her self aggrandisement this immense kind of megalomania kind of gross and or whatever it’s called um so that’s an issue too like like so the pride goes on both sides that are we Too Proud to

00:35:06 receive or are we Too Proud to or are we trying to increase our image by giving you know that we see ourselves as virtuous and Noble Etc F that’s a nice expression you wanted to offer generously an exercise yeah yeah so it’s um when you think of generosity I mean like not thinking in a way have it analyzed but just the the notion of generosity there is something in you that already responds so where in your awareness do you find or you could say where does that reside in your awareness that notion of

00:35:58 generosity where do you find it in your body or in your awareness I feel it on the left side somewhere I feel it in the heart mhm like Conelly said feel it right here I had almost an elevator feeling from the solar plexus to the heart somewhere here so there was a movement yeah coming up yeah heart sorry and you man yeah also an elevator feeling to the heart but it’s mostly in the heart yeah got good feeling strangely enough a kind of sadness was there as well yeah that’s what I want you to just feel

00:37:03 the is there any color is there any shape is there any temperature that you feel is there anything that that tells you more about it just in the sensations just in the awareness I I just had this image of maybe because I chose the gut that you know there’s this expands and contraction you know and the heart would do the same thing it would expand and contract but kind of you know with generosity there’s an expansion and then you kind of have to come back and and hold stable and and then you can expand but then you have to

00:37:59 come back and hold stable so that’s kind of the motion I thought of can I ask a question Gad um as soon as you said color or um as soon as you opened it up I realized my my mind jumped in okay and I wonder whatever how does one how does how does one question is how do you switch that off so you can actually perceive what’s happening organically cuz I immediately thought oh well Red’s the color like you know like of the heart in Valentine’s Day just go and go back to the real the the actual sensation so

00:38:45 just and forget about the the what I said it’s more like what can you say about it what you feel I feel a rolling wave in my shoulders I feel a little bit as if it’s when I said left side is is not is it’s the heart but like a big balloon or big ball and it somehow is confining me it’s it’s as if it wants past the the walls of this ball but it’s sort of not not finding the the way and a little bit I can feel into what Mona said of sadness with a with a feeling I feel like a bow so I said it was kind of a motion here and then it

00:39:56 snuggled or like resided in a bowl so like here so the um the other way like the diaphragm so yeah feels like an some kind of golden thing it’s not all golden but there’s a golden Shimmer to it so and now just a allow it to expand as much as it wants to this generosity throughout your awareness so expand into Don’t Force It don’t do anything about it just let it expand for this was a nice move because I felt it expand in my whole body and then it went into my arms and into the hands and I I connected it with with doing

00:41:46 know that it’s now going up so the hands it was nice uh do you know the N Brahma meditation there is this uh arm movement uh you go like this so you really expand but there is a second movement when you take it back as to yourself so you also have to be generous to yourself I guess I just remember that so it’s it’s it’s uh first movement is it’s a quarter of an hour like this and then you go and yeah collect it in yourself as well because otherwise you would deplete yourself so you really have to watch out

00:42:36 for yourself as well without being stingy and how did it feel for you for you yeah I remember that all of a sudden I I saw those both movement yeah okay great because I meditation in a long time but it’s yeah just stay connected to that and you reminded me uh Mona’s movement it reminds me of what we do in in yoga class when we’re breathing in and and opening up and then we come back to the Heart Center as as we exhale and we we bring it all back in and we do that motion you know several times uh during a class

00:43:28 and how did it feel for you this expansion by itself good feels good feels open feels welcoming feels connected yeah I would like to hear from either Mona or Heidi because they both mentioned sadness and I mentioned guilt and I was wanting to hear a little bit more from them regarding how that how they experienced that well as you mentioned it uh I always see much more need than I can give so that’s the sadness but that’s the way it is it’s uh yeah I’m not a millionaire but I give my time and my

00:44:25 attention and I’m walking with my husband we have a a little Park next door and I walk now for exercise because the therapist said unless he walks every day around the park he won’t start exercising with him so now we are and I follow him so um yeah but I guess it’s not because of generosity because it’s a necessity to support him I don’t know whether that’s generous but it’s just a necessity stay connected while everybody shares and so who hasn’t shared yet I’m not completely sure H and Victoria for me I

00:45:16 felt Oneness I felt no differentiation between myself and everything around I felt it kind of um almost like a vibration it felt like like kind of waves of of warmth kind of like moving outward but then also moving inward it was a kind of like a like a pulsing but but not like the heart more like um well I don’t know it felt bigger and warmer I actually felt like a change in temperature m so now stay connected with that for me it was kind of the this bowl was kind of going up and and just letting it flow

00:46:11 through the lower parts of my body as well and and there was a shiver going through and now stay connected with that but and and let the emergence come I mean like is there any idea any impulse anything that comes up that like you want to do you want to share you want to feel is there anything that comes out of this expanded generosity inside you like Heidi said with her hands something like what do the hands want to do for example can be something symbolic or actual whatever that is for me what comes up is an expression

00:47:41 of joy you just want to feel it or do you want to do something with it share it mhm I got this sense of color which you had mentioned Goud um you know generosity being given as something that feels very green kind of connect a connected color nature something natural um and receiving kind of more sense of white because of not having anything attached to it so white kind of is a blank screen so if you can to me white for receiving is a sense of don’t have anything attached to it don’t make it complicated just keep it more

00:48:59 pure something like just says thank [Music] you yeah H for me I immediately thought of this guy who did the summit he’s extraordinary and I I really felt I want to give him something and I came up with what I can send to him too yeah for me it’s like I’m just still looking for what I can do with these hands there is still the energy flowing out but I have no idea where where it is going either no control or it’s not yet going or uh um non non I don’t feel a direction where it is going yet let’s

00:50:22 say h your joy is beaming that’s nice yeah I just notice how warm the hot area has become and it’s really expanding uh yeah it’s it’s very very for me it’s very relaxing and peaceful without wanting anything without needing anything it’s just a as as Victoria said it’s a pulsing vibration m um you can come back to your generosity anytime yeah now know where it resides and then you let it expand and from there you can act or you can I don’t know whatever feels right to you and yeah so get as usually you have

00:51:51 been very generous to us thank you it’s also and also yeah very appreci for creating all of this you have shown us so many nice so many beautiful exercises over the years so whenever you learn something new you share it and that’s really great yeah thank you and by the way I uh I asked if I can share instant change with you and I’m allowed to do that like a group practice so if I tell them that I’m going to do it and when so hey goes back to you to close it I want to add this pulsing in my heart I

00:52:48 feel it very strongly and I also got the heat waves which is not unusual uh but it just came up in the last 10 minutes or 15 minutes so but I feel when my heart is beating in this way I feel it a little uncomfortable because you know it’s like anyway I feel good now and I thank you all of you have sh this do we still have a minute I Hy can you can you um explain the um what you wrote in the chat the the philanthropy washing or is that going backwards in the subject I don’t know I’ve never seen that term before so

00:53:36 I was me curious me neither yeah well washing what they what they mean by washing usually is when people do it just for the like you were sharing about that rich family they just do it for the show outwards to be recognized in the world it’s not really from the heart so people do green washing so they do things for sustainability but it’s not really because they care about the Earth for example now there’s philanthropy washing as well people and some names came up as we were speaking it’s people just doing

00:54:08 it for their public persona it’s not really so it’s not really giving it’s not through altruism it’s it’s it’s it’s washing is when when they say you wash something in that sense it’s for the show okay oh so maybe like in the maybe it comes from the biblical the handwashing ritual handwashing that you’re not really clean in your heart but you’re you’ve washed your hands so you see you appear to be I’m innocent yeah or I’m I’m a wonderful thing yeah I don’t know where it comes from I don’t know how that who brought in the washing

00:54:47 thing but they use it all these days in different terms like green washing like even with things like Dei in in terms of the equality and inclusion washing um philanthropy washing and all those type of things sustainability and pretend it’s clean it’s pretending so it’s pretending you give but it’s really for the show public person yeah yeah thank you yeah that’s because yeah because what Gerra shared with us is is the exact opposites is going inside what’s really in there and then how can we manifest it which is

00:55:29 that’s great it’s like an antidote to the washing that’s right that’s I I felt it so genuine what you shared so it felt like when it when your generosity comes from that place um that’s really a nice a nice thing nice a person here staying with in my house and she told me today um that about a person who for I think for a city or I don’t know who it a sort of community gave 1 million umos every year and many many years and they don’t know who it is oh great so that’s certainly not nobody knows who it is but every

00:56:21 year it comes the money isn’t that great good ah thank you it was really nice it was again a night thank you for everybody and hope to see you again in two weeks thank you and also Christine you can you’re very very welcome to come yeah bye bye bye I really love to come but sometimes I just I’m in a train or something so if I don’t show up sometimes I forget get to tell you but um oh yeah and beatric also sends her love she she because of the time change we changed uh to earlier yeah so she was

00:57:07 already at work so she couldn’t join but she said to send her love and please say hello to everyone so remember next time it’s still like today it’s it’s still like today and on only in one month it will be regular again okay last weekend in in uh March it’s here okay okay bye bye bye bye