The end of 2024

### Summary

In this heartfelt discussion, a group of women connects to share their experiences and reflections as they approach the end of 2024, particularly around the challenges and joys of the holiday season and the transitions they anticipate in the upcoming year. Christine shares her concerns regarding a friend’s medical issues while expressing excitement for personal changes in 2025, including a wedding and potential retirement. Victoria expresses the emotional rollercoaster she experiences during the busy holiday period, feeling both joy and exhaustion. Lorraine discusses her recent house sale, moving logistics, and the ongoing health struggle of a family member. Gertude shares her busy holiday plans, including travel arrangements and reflecting on her coaching experiences. Meanwhile, Mona touches on her health struggles and upcoming Italian language exam, while also expressing a desire for the new year to bring positive changes. As the conversation unfolds, the group discusses self-care, the importance of emotional well-being, and the need for balance amidst life’s challenges. They also touch on personal growth, aspirations for the next year, and the collective hope for a more peaceful world.

Highlights-

🎉 **Christine’s Anticipation:** Christine is excited about significant changes in 2025, including her daughter’s wedding and her own potential retirement.-

🎢 **Victoria’s Emotional Rollercoaster:** Victoria shares her experience of extreme highs and lows during the festive season, highlighting the emotional toll of social commitments.-

🏠 **Lorraine’s Transition:** Lorraine discusses selling her house and moving in with a friend temporarily, expressing both excitement and anxiety about the change.-

🎄 **Gertude’s Holiday Logistics:** Gertude talks about the logistical challenges of coordinating holiday plans with family, emphasizing the busy nature of the season.-

🌍 **Mona’s Exam and Aspirations:** Mona prepares for her Italian language exam while also reflecting on her health and the upcoming year, hoping for positive changes.-

💖 **Self-Care Focus:** The women collectively recognize the need for self-care and balance in their lives as they navigate personal challenges.-

🌈 **Hope for the Future:** The group expresses a shared hope for a more peaceful world in 2025, with a focus on personal growth and emotional well-being.### Key Insights- 💬 **The Importance of Community Support:** The group’s dynamic highlights the value of community and emotional support during challenging times. Sharing personal struggles fosters a sense of belonging and encourages resilience among members.-

🌟 **Anticipation of Change:** Many participants expressed a desire for change in 2025, indicating a collective readiness to embrace new opportunities. This forward-looking perspective can serve as a motivational force, providing a sense of purpose and direction.-

🎈 **Navigating Emotional Highs and Lows:** Victoria’s experience illustrates how social engagements during the holiday season can lead to emotional exhaustion, emphasizing the need for individuals to manage their energy and acknowledge their emotional states.-

🏡 **Transitioning Life Stages:** Lorraine’s transition from home ownership to temporary living arrangements reflects broader themes of adapting to life changes and the emotional complexities involved in these transitions, such as feelings of uncertainty and excitement.-

🧘 **Self-Care as a Priority:** The discussion surrounding self-care underscores its critical role in mental health, particularly for women who often balance multiple responsibilities. Prioritizing self-care can lead to improved emotional resilience and overall well-being.-

🕊️ **Hope Amidst Challenges:** The group’s shared optimism for the future, including hopes for peace and personal growth, highlights the importance of maintaining a hopeful outlook, even in the face of difficulties.-

🎶 **Reclaiming Passions:** The acknowledgment of the need to reconnect with personal passions, as expressed by participants, speaks to the importance of individual identity and fulfillment as integral to mental health and personal satisfaction.

In conclusion, this gathering of women serves as a powerful reminder of the strength found in community, the importance of self-care, and the shared journey of navigating life’s transitions and challenges. As they prepare for the new year, their reflections on personal growth, emotional well-being, and hope for a more peaceful world resonate deeply, encouraging others to embrace their own journeys with positivity and resilience.

it is women matters shortly before Christmas 2024 here maybe she makes it with a technology it’s not always easy monia from Vienna but let’s start with with Christine and then lorine I take you at at the end and then you tell us what is going on with you okay okay um I don’t really have a whole lot to uh say um Tom’s got more medical issues that have come up so he’s going for more diagnostic tests and depending it may or may not require surgery um but that’ll be it it’s nothing emergent so it’ll take some timeto figure out what’s going on for him uh you know busy it’s a busy time of year what can I say but I’m looking forward to some changes in uh 2025 so I’m excited about that lot I have a lot to look forward to next year let me put it that way so and I will pass on to Victoria um oh I’m already mut thank you um I yeah I’m I’m on a roller coaster these days um uh oh Mon’s gone again speaking of roller coasters she said she couldn’t hear us so there’s something going on with is not technology um yeah I’m I’m I just justcircumstantially I’m going back and forth between incredibly hectic days which are very celebratory um lots of lot of doorbells going here um um diff through different communities I’m involved with so different Christmas events um or well not Christmas Advent events um and then and then days of like today might be a day like that where I think it’s just exhaustion but but it feels like like today when I woke up I woke up in tears so it’s this feeling of um highs the highs and lows are really high and low right now and so it feelsvery um you know the highs are great yesterday had a incredibly fabulous day um but I guess it’s just the exhaustion because like yesterday I was out from 6:30 in the morning till um 10 11 last night so I guess I guess it’s just natural to be to feel a little bit depressed when you wake up the next morning um I thought I would sleep in this morning but I I lately I just wake up because I’m in a in a pattern now of being out out of the house by 7 so um or before 7 so I guess I guess everything’s okay I I guessthat’s my check-in it’s but it’s um I don’t know how much I recommend that kind of a life of the intensity and then the and then you it’s like someone dropped you from a very high height um and I will pass to um Lorraine yeah hi I don’t know Victoria mentioned this before but I was out at a music venue a few weeks ago and I looked up to my left and there was Victoria and we had never met in person but uh you looked exactly the way you look on video so that was that was fun um anyway as uh Christine may have filled you in I soldmy house and um right now um I’ve got I’ve got a move in less than three weeks so I’m busy organizing and planning and fixing various fixes that I have to get done my realtor is coming over any minute and uh it’s exciting but also nerve-wracking and yes like Christine it sounds like Christine mentioned uh I have a friend who’s got this built out area um underneath her garage that’s adorable it’s this tiny little apartment and um so I’m going to stay there for a few months until I find someplace to to buy which is myplan so there’s that and um yeah I have a niece who’s got cancer and at the moment she’s been fighting it for 15 years and at the moment she seems to be in very good shape so we’re happy about that uh Christmas is sort of getting blown away I I just somebody invited me for Christmas dinner I’m very willing to go usually I like to do something for the holidays myself but no way not that not this year no tree no lights no nothing so anyway that’s where I’m at uh gertude yeah hi sorry I’m late I I havea seminar to lead right be till six o and sometimes it goes over um so check in is that the okay I’m Gard from Germany middle north of Frankfurt and um it’s a lot happening so we just booked all the the train rides from to one daughter where the other comes and then they go and we go to the third one so it’s it’s kind of uh was like Logistics how to how to spend what days with whom and uh present and things like that and I had some wonderful coachings this this um last week last two weeks so it’s it’s like wrapping upor um one is really imp was really impressing me so she is the head of a kitchen with I don’t know five chefs or so and to find the right words in her field like to to get into her world to make clear what I mean that was really really um yeah I was pretty proud that I could do that and and shared a lot of takeaways from that yeah I bruised my my rips and this is pretty like Hing and sneezing is not a good idea yeah but but I’m I’m I’m fine and I’m check checking the last check lists before the end of the yearhi Mona we cannot hear you she doesn’t have a microphone it doesn’t it doesn’t show so there is something which is not here we go when you unmute yourself H did everybody speak before I can hear you now thank you I hand over to you for the check in yeah come on unmute yourself on second mon well again unexpected technical difficulties I am stressed but I will relax soon and I hope you’re all fine um we are very Christmasy and I’m rather tired most of the time um yeah I guess that’s about the essentialsI don’t know why I’m so tired but I just went shopping with my cart and I just feel exhausted so maybe it’s old age I don’t know okay do we have a topic not yet first I check in and yeah I I don’t know if you’re hear my voice I have aaso Devo which uh obviously also some sort of cold which I didn’t have for the last 15 years any any cold or influenza no it’s not influence us just the voice is going down and sometimes coughing but uh tomorrow it will be better I’m quite sure I will have on Wednesday my Italianexam so I try to to to to read what we did in the last three months or four months I’m really not very inspired because in at the end I know everything but in exams then I’m might uh not be alert enough or something like this and then there happen the the the errors but I’m quite convinced that I will make it for sure it’s I don’t know if I told you because we need the exam if you want to I want to ask the Italian citizenship and so you need to have a language exam it’s quite I mean if I didn’t knowItalian very well if I had to learn it it would be really really really hot so uh you know I I studied it intensely 35 years ago so and I practice it not very much in the late years later years but at the beginning a lot so but the poor other ones there’s a person from aaban or from as Afghanistan and all these people they I think they are struggling you can see it also when they speak so not easy anyway I’m looking forward that this is over what I’m was listening to the topic next year it should be differentand better or something should change and so I’m wondering what you I heard it from lorine for sure because she leaves the house but also Christine you said uh that next year you want to have it different I hope it will be somehow different and maybe the others have some idea for this too so I try not to speak too much so I give over to who wants to start maybe Christine you was the first one uh to to mention that so is the topic just talking about what we’re looking forward to or the changes we’re anticipating just okay umwell if I go through the year uh The First Daughter of business is my daughter is getting married April 11th so uh yesterday she was over and we were talking about details and um it’s fun it’s also made it hard for me to fall asleep but it’s fun uh yeah some some details that we’re trying to figure out and uh but that’s all you know it’s all a good thing it’s all a Happy thing and then I will be going to uh Europe in May and June for IEC and um I’m turning 70 in June so um we are going to extend our trip inEurope and we’re going to uh provance um before IEC and we’ll spend about 10 days in provance and Leon and then go to Budapest IEC and then I’ll turn 70 in June and then I have a high school graduation a high school reunion in September um which actually I’m looking forward to I know a lot of people don’t look forward to those or care about them but uh it’s a chance to go back home uh where I grew up and so those are I’m trying to think if there’s anything else hopefully hopefully no illnesses or bad things butthose are all things that I’m looking forward to uh for next year and um yeah I mean the the wedding is a little nerve-wracking because there’s just a lot of planning and it it’s kind of falls on me and my daughter and uh then a trip to Europe has a lot of planning with it um but I’m going to see my brother and sister in January and get to visit with them also so that’s fun going to Florida where my brother stays for the winter and uh we’re all getting together to spend some time so a lot to look forward to um really I think ohmaybe the biggest thing actually um by the end of Line’s probably laughing at me uh by the end of 2025 I do plan to have retired um so that’s that I’m kind of being pushed in that direction because of some things coming up at my office where I’m not going to have as much access in going forward um into 2025 I will not be able to utilize the uh the office as much as I have it now so I’m just using that as impetus to say it’s time I’m going to be winding down so in January I’ll begin to talk to peopleabout that transition and how they want to go about it if they’re going to stay in therapy with somebody or just stop or whatever so um not anxious about it but again it requires a certain amount of thinking and uh trying to figure out what’s the best way to deal with the various people so um I don’t know that’s about it looking forward to the next year personally so anybody else have stuff to add yeah it’s um it’s also there’s a feeling of excitement for me as well this is something I’ve been wanting to do because I’m not especiallygood at puttering around the house I don’t even like to take care of plants I know that sounds very kind of unwoke but um I just uh am looking forward it’s like a next level of freedom for me I this is going to sound terrible but anyway I don’t have to take care of a husband and I don’t you know I will be retired completely by the end of January so I won’t be taking care of patients um I do take care of my family and friends and you know all of that because that kind of fuels me but I fully expect even with that positive umDirection I fully expect there’ll be some mornings I wake up in tears doubting myself what did you do you had this beautiful home and because that’s who I am I will fall into self-doubt uh but I sort of I’m so used to that by now that I sort of have more hope that I’ll be able to pull out of it more quickly I mean it just goes with the territory when you’re me that’s what you do because you’ve got this one side of me is this hard rational organized programmable person and then the other side is all these mushyfeelings so they’re going to come up and and I should welcome them because they round me out I guess so I’m I’m sort of looking forward with an eye on okay what are going to be the tough moments and they’re going to come so just trying to prepare from that perspective Ive you know good stuff and knowing me with you know the obstacles that will arrive so that somehow feels more mature so um so anyway so it’s it’s kind of a whole new I think sense of Freedom houses are wonderful but they’re tremendous responsibilities and that’snot where my Love Goes taking care of stuff you know I like taking care of people but you know I have a renewed sense of boundaries that sort of thing so you know it’s it’s playing the integration game for me because both impulses have always been very strong so that’s my story well I just wanted to say um I it it normally it in 40 minutes when I log off this call I I normally go to a um group therapy session on Zoom um that’s a I’m my provide well for those of you in California my provider is theUniversity um so it’s a UCSD and um and it’s on dialectical behavioral therapy and so I just thought Lor when you were talking it just made me laugh because I thought because today I have to miss the group because I’m going to go for this aquatic therapy in a swimming pool um I choose between mind or body and I decided um I’ll I’ll go with the body for the moment and hope my mind but thank you because because then I made me laugh because when you shared that I thought oh this is the best of bothworlds like I get a little touch of H dialectical behavioral therapy um you know to get me launched and then I’ll go take care of my body by swimming in the pool so um because that whole thing of the um of the the rational and the emotional and and then bringing them together in the wise mind and that’s exactly um you know that’s why I keep going to this group it’s it’s an open-ended group and it seems like every week there’s something to talk about where where either the rational mind is taking overor the emotional mind is taking over into how to integrate so anyway thank you for that so I get the best of both worlds uh Victoria I I didn’t get your intentions for 25 did you mention them or did I miss them oh mon you’re always after me I was sort of waiting for you to do that um well I I is my intention is that fair um to get my body and mind um get get everything in this um I mean I I I’ve been for the moment getting this this uh order for aquatic therapy has been a real blessing because I I I miss swimming I as you probablyall know I I spend my whole life in the pool I have a pool but it’s cold um and so I managed through a lot of work to to get a a doctor’s order that I can go to this pool it’s actually a hotel it’s a little bit peculiar I went for the first time last week but I just really I really I don’t I feel like I’m getting really old really fast and I just don’t it just seems inappropriate and so I want to do what I can and because I love water so much I feel like it’s it’s it also helps the mind the mind and the body just the um um I meanmy huge project I don’t know if I can do it or not I’m going to find out tomorrow some information is to try to actually heat my own pool um which nobody does in California anymore except hotels and and you know facilities sports facilities so it’s probably astronomically expensive but op propo of having a house Lorraine my idea was um my house is falling apart you all know you’ve you’ve seen even on Zoom the the roof falling in and the ceiling and everything but I thought like you said where do I put my love Iwhat you said Lorraine it’s I I resonate with that cuz like I don’t if even if the whole house like falls into total shambles it suddenly hit me if I can if I can afford somehow with the money coming from my mother’s estate to heat my pool um then then I’ll that might be a hope you know that that I can actually you know because then it’s something that actually is life affirming and not just you know looking after stuff as you said because I totally resonate with that so is that good enough monia do Ineed to add anything okay are you are you satisfied yeah I’m satisfied well and it’s mind and body I mean I I suffer from depression as you probably all know and and I but I I just feel like I need to work on every front for that is excellent therapy I know that it grounds you as amazing as it sounds I just wanted to compliment Christine because you don’t look like 70 look like 50 at least thank you yeah there nothing so um well my my grandson is going to marry April and luckily so I’m more distant tothis and I am not involved and I refuse to be involved shopping dress already so I’ll just do that in in March or something but they are they seem to be happy and that’s okay and I don’t have the trouble of owning a house but we now have probably have to install electric garage doors and this will amount to 35,000 which is quite a lot because one door was damaged and so they anyway the apartment is no longer ours it belongs to my daughter we just live here and she has to decide what to do and we don’t so it’s quiteeasy um what am I expecting well I know that my husband’s Health probably won’t improve Pro so him getting less and less and me doing more and more will probably have to end sometimes because once I’m that tired because I do so much it’s yeah it’s better to stop um on the positive side I am thinking about discussing to stop the tantric sex I’m having at my age because it’s on one hand it’s just beautiful and on the other hand it’s getting more and more strenuous so this will be a lot of discussion to have with my partnerand uh but I guess it’s time to stop now and just go to the mental intercourse or something like that if this is possible um yeah I never thought that I would have this problem at 83 and it’s funny in in one respect and yeah so is the problem what is the problem for you giving it up or when you said uh the problem is missing out on this kind of energy of expanding your Consciousness quite naturally to to me at least it always expands enormously which I probably won’t have that way anymore um but I I don’t know maybe Ifind another way to expand it yeah um otherwise I wouldn’t say that I’m looking forward to 25 I’m sort of hesitant but I take it as it comes that’s the only way I’ll do and whatever whatever challenges will appear I will look at them and try not to lose my sense of humor and find this the funny side of everything and the cosmic joke as Victoria might call it so yeah I hope the world finds a way to get along and not to fight and I have just read I started reading a book book it’s called possibilities byURI Ur Y and he is a POS he’s someone who enables different looks on conflicts and I find it very interesting and I will continue that way I don’t will I won’t be able to contribute to the world but at least in my surroundings it might become also useful okay that’s about what I’m expecting of 2025 get R what new projects and programs will you be going through and sharing you ask in the right direction sharing um CH I want to um crack the code of abundance like not yeah just let scarcity behind and it’s notonly money it’s it’s just this yeah just have a container that overflows um and there are some yeah some um possibilities in the in the pipeline like to do the Master’s Master course for instant change or what I stumbled upon was the um painfree Summit they did two weeks ago and this guy is like incredible um who came up with like to to get back to your um like your body like it was invented from in the first place like um and and and he showed us several things how to get back into what did they call it where where everything isaligned your head your shoulders your hips um everything stapled upon each other and um so I I want to dig deeper in to this like how and he he has people with I don’t know teenies up to 85 year old people that um yeah also to regain your power um yeah to to get your physical strengths back in a way that so to to be painfree but then go beyond and yeah I was very intrigued by by this guy who who created all of this he’s he’s 26 so amazing I I’m really so amazed by those young people uh maybe not each andeveryone but uh but like some they they are really of another kind I think yeah so you haven’t named the name yeah ustus Hil and the the company is the original body as the company um yeah and uh it’s for us it’s time to to find where to live so it could be by a house but not us but we sold the house so uh two years ago and we handed over the money to our daughters and they would buy something where we can live so it’s a little bit like mon said yeah so that we don’t have to to deal with every everything in the house buthave a nice possibility um with yeah n for my husband who is a photographer and and being close to the kids and they want to move so we’re not so sure where to settle but this will be decided next year and um what Mona no Victoria said this like growing all of feeling like getting old quickly that also to stop that and I didn’t attempt with my training um yeah and also there is a feeling that with Assad fleeing to Moscow and that there is a lot of change in the air that could lead to something positive I don’tknow what the states will contribute to that this is like a joker cage so you don’t you don’t know but there is something in the air what I I I just lean towards um then more peace will will be here on the planet and that the Ukraine can in Gaza in have you so that the suffering is over yeah I had a very powerful coaching session with somebody from Ukraine and so mon when you say I cannot do anything about the world but the way we are talking to each other uh and the way we are being makes a difference inthe world I think so yeah I think we can contribute in another way then on the 3D World mentioning Ukraine I just want to let everybody know in case you’re interested um the January meeting which I think is on the 11th the 2nd Saturday of January San Diego integral meets and uh they’re going to have a panel of ukrainians um speaking so that’ll be really interesting yeah Tucker Walsh I don’t know if people know Tucker Walsh is but he’s he’s knows the and he put together the the panel yeah and Victoria might come oryeah okay so I know I know terer yeah I have to get out my voice and say something so I hope that all your hopes will come true um for me for I really hope that I will resolve my house problem you know um I like to take care for it up to a certain point especially to my trees I did three or four olive trees today gruning the olive trees and I really love that to go out be in nature and do something despite my arms sometimes then they hurt a little bit but okay this is the age coming quicker know probably maybe I don’t Idon’t know after I’ve done two hours with the trees I feel like like strong again like like before and when I don’t do anything it was raining the last few days and I sit inside in front of the stove and then I feel like oh I’m getting old things like that and as soon as I’m out wonderful so I hope that I will find the right people there are increasingly people writing to me and I do uh Zoom talks and two people wanted to come one has uh said he wouldn’t come but now a woman is here for some monthsand yesterday somebody else three people they want to get to know me and things like that so it has increased the the number of people being interested although then I write back and most of them they don’t they don’t reply but at least it feels like something is moving I also had come to the point about six weeks ago okay at the end I need to sell it and then I have to find something but near the center of the little village because you know when I go somewhere else it must be where I can go by feetuh to because here you have to have a car and you go out with a car otherwise it’s just difficult yeah I hope to to resolve this and yeah to continue to get to know a lot of good people and have a lot of good discussions and uh Victoria is in the car now have a good trip and I’m all together uh hopeful but I think it will still get worse a little bit before it can get better so maybe we have to come really to the bottom to to understand what is going on to be able then to get more Consciousnessabout how we want to live and how we don’t want others to to dominate and to to to brero what is it in in English to make fun of us by manipulating us and uh things like that so I hope that we will come to the point in one way of or the other but better in a good way then in the in the not so good way so I’m hoping for that yeah so far to me um Heidi I I know you were looking to sell or Andor have a partner right yeah yeah well so are those still both possibilities or not I I would like to have one or several Partners you knowfor the house and to sell them or find a way where we are con uh co- Proprietors in some way and if I sell it I could have sold it twice or but then I would have needed to go away and that’s not yet what I want because I don’t want to sit in a in an apartment and I need my garden I need my my trees and and I have created this in 35 almost 40 years I have built all up so I would like to be uh witness of how it’s going on even if it will change but you know the the possibility to go out and do something that’s for me so importantlife saving in many ways because otherwise I would go into depression if I didn’t have the nature to to to be there I can’t stand live anymore in the third floor somewhere needing to go the steps down as I did all my life before I came here m i if it is possible I want to stay here and we will see how it’s going so I’m confident that something will open up well if you were to ever sell it you could always ask to maintain a garden plot and come back during uh Olive harvesting season to take care of thetrees see if you could have a little garden yeah that’s not the way because I can’t work eight hours a day I go out and every day I do an hour or two and when I stay somewhere else I would need to have the car and come back and that that wouldn’t feel if I sell it completely then I’m gone I don’t come back so I always have you GNA sell your car too sell your car H sell your car also just no my car is my freedom I need my car yeah uh Heidi I have to visit you yeah yeah sure yeah really I mean it’snow long who knows how I live only one of you yeah yeah I have an idea maybe I should build a swimming pool and a jacuzzi and heat it um on on your property and just forget about my house here sell everything here and go to Italy I wanted to say Victoria the heating why don’t you do it with solar panels that’s really oh I I plan to yeah yeah and it shouldn’t be so difficult because it’s just you know it shouldn’t be too expensive that’s what I mean and you have in California you have a lot of sunand the few days where it’s not warm enough okay you know but most of the days when here when we have sun and it’s warm when it’s cold it’s because of the north wind but the solar panels don’t um they don’t bother about North Wind they just take the Sun so it should be warm enough in your place so I wish that you are able to do that the thing is coming here for everybody is what do they do here this person who is here now she can work on internet and uh people people younger people who want to go into anothercountry they have to know how to live I mean what to live from I mean it is it’s not so easy when you have a certain age and you get the pension then you can move uh more easily but if you have to work still not so easy anyway I’m hopefully hopeful about something will show up I’m getting less nervous and less um in this regard less tense yeah yeah that’s good yeah I put I put a link in the in the chat um about um a video I stumbled upon yesterday and it’s uh Greg Braden I don’t know if you know him he’s in thehe he’s a scientist um and worked really in in high level scientific uh circles and he says that what’s under radar it’s more like um to to look at what’s happening in in medicine and and so to uh and that maybe humankind cannot recover from so it’s really interesting uh to see like to have chips in in your brain and to have Nano something in your blood and uh so he he says that this is is more like in there are other people on the control panel that can do something so your on TV yeah I I just found it veryinteresting I I went halfway through I haven’t haven’t seen it yet completely but um that combines he’s a very interesting Guy Greg is it you yeah okay somebody has already clicked on it so I just wanted to tell you this is also something that is uh on the R newly on my mind what does that mean the tech also that technology is invented by people like Elon Musk or that that don’t have a like a mandate they are not elected they are just doing what they feel like doing with their money yeah generally I think this is abig uh danger but also a big promise the thing uh in my opinion is that technology is very Advanced but doesn’t mean that we have to use everything but technology is able to do and that we need to reenter in a certain way in into blue in the sense of getting ethics in place we don’t have in place and long AI with technology really dangerous but um that’s what we can do to to to fight for for a human way of being fight is not the right word but to to become the change and don’t accept Hazard things you knowwhat they say oh that’s good and blah blah blah no no it’s not just uh only because you can do it doesn’t mean you have to do it and chips in the brain and things like that what they are doing now with all the radiation which is going into our uh system and so we should oppose more these influences because they are changing us uh and maybe we don’t want it nobody we are not we don’t didn’t agree to be changed in this way you know so and maybe we could all watch this video and then uh come back to talk about it sothis could be a topic MH next time uh that will be probably next year yeah sure next year yeah y we’re not going to meet on the what what would it be the 29th the 30th no 30th yeah something like that for me it’s fine but uh I don’t know the 30th could be I don’t know I don’t know yet because I’m uh traveling from um anyway we can talk about that let’s finish up here with our topic uh I’m wondering still what has happened in your life this year which you would like to change which you are unhappy about and what younext time you would do differ that would be my check out question sort of um I’m realizing that by giving up music completely this last this past year it’s it just hit me that that’s probably a major cause for my depression and um and I have the instruments right in my house ready ready to be played at any moment of the day or night and I’ve I’ve neglected elected them for a whole year now because I haven’t had any concerts on my schedule and I’m I I would like to change that I would like to realize thatit’s a part of who I am and and I need to do it regardless of whether I have a public or not and just um reclaim that because I’ve I’ve lost a whole year and it’s really BL way I’m getting emotional so goodbye thank um I can’t think of any one thing IDI that I would change you know from this past year going into the next year I guess I’m always looking for finding more balance or integration you know between my everyday self and my more spiritual self um you know the different parts of me I guess to continue to find a way thatthey all can have expression and not um not at the price of another piece of myself um so I guess that’s probably it I’m always looking for ways to be more more self-aware but also more kind and when you have to want when you want to be kind and patient with other people you you focus on them as opposed to myself so I want to continue to work on being able to shift back and forth uh between those kind of more easily or without uh tripping myself up I guess yeah I can second that so there is no specific thing Iwouldn’t want to do or that I’m mad about me that I have done or it it’s this ongoing um yeah expansion and integration of and I probably will not give up learning new things that’s in my DNA yeah become more and more self-aware and I Can See For example that I um it’s now the fifth training in wlow I did did last weekend not this but the before in Amsterdam and and I can feel that I’m more and more like relaxing into being and coming from there not so much like doing the practices or whatever so it’smore more really like listening from that place and and I think that’s that’s also something I want to deepen I apologize I have to leave the meeting my realtor just showed up he was planning to come and he came a little early so um let me know when the next meeting is are we meeting in two weeks okay I will try I cannot I cannot um promise but I try to be there because of I think my train will not allow it so could be that I’m not there okay but I will open the room and who is here is here and then we see okay happy holidaysto all of you if I don’t see you was very nice to see you again and uh for the future see you soon bye- bye and we have lost M again yeah because of she didn’t hear anything problems yeah so so what I did wrong may be wrong but it’s not yet clear I bought this H bike but I think I told you about this electric bike and out of the internet it seemed a little smaller and it came and is such a huge thing that it made a huge impression on me and I have to overcome my we say swine dog my inner swine dog to to says no no no you don’t gowith that no even yesterday or yeah yes no on Sunday yeah yesterday was Sunday uh I went I said y you try and try it out you must get familiar with it you know and so maybe next time I would have um needed to be more aware how a thing like this not not to buy uh from the internet without having seen it or tried it out in in reality things like that you know that afterwards I think oh you should have done it because it’s also so so heavy if there is something wrong with it how do I get it to the to to repair and things like that sonot being enough although my my intent is always to preview everything every possible thing and be prepared of it and then there happen things like that oops and I did something RIS how do you say that which can create trouble let’s say in this in this way on the other hand I think in my age it’s really good to to re Reet on the bike to to I didn’t do it since Mark was uh gone I didn’t do it anymore so also this training to yeah maybe I haven’t done enough last year but alog together it’s like you both saidit’s uh continue the awareness and the the observation the the um witness thing what is going on and without trying to supress negative voices but just see what they are doing and ah okay mhm things like that and um yeah nothing really big to change are either of you thinking of going to IEC in May yeah it’s it’s too expensive I cannot afford that I bought the the the bicycle and afterwards I was really at the end of uh so no I I’m not sure I’m not sure anyway you can come and see me both of youto go to Germany for the integral meeting of East Germany in in in May but you know there you pay only the youth hostel and nothing else and I will give you yeah maybe I would do that I I’m not sure I since 16 I was on AR but um um that’s the East one that’s nicer than the West one so it’s really yeah maybe you can send me the dates I I I think 13th of May anyway bye Victoria let’s see in two weeks and hopefully our wishes for next year and we can confirm I have one more um for for next year to uh domore self-care self love self worth so like to to come from that place like abundant to myself so I can overflow I think this is a good idea for all of us because uh I see with since I did the feminine power training this is where we women really have a still a big deficit in self-care and uh believing in overflow but instead of Duty and have to do this and that and yeah let we’ll remind each other we can remind each other take care of ourselves yes now I will take care from my voice okay yeah and thank you chowchow chow